Eat chocolate! You'll feel better!'. I know damn well I'll be happy eating junk food whilst I'm putting it into my mouth but the next day? No happiness, just a bloated belly, pangs of guilt and feeling that I'm not only failing myself, but anyone who reads Just Ems. How can I post about clean eating and losing weight when I've stuffed my face with a chippy tea the night before? I can't. That would be hypocritical and I'm not a hypocrite when it comes to my weight loss journey. So I chose not to post until I was fully motivated and clean eating again as I don't feel that would be fair to anyone reading my blog or to myself. I have read all the tips on how to avoid giving into temptations - have a bath, paint your nails, read a book etc. Do something to take your mind off of the voice inside your head telling you to eat something bad and most of the time I do ignore it. I can say no to cakes and chocolate in the office but sometimes, my will power isn't always there. And I cave...
So this week I have been trying to get my head back into the game so to speak, clean eating and going to the gym. We will see what the scales say tomorrow.
If you haven't already seen on social media, I have signed up with a personal trainer. Since 25th December I've lapsed twice, over the festive season and last week so I feel that I need someone/something to give me the much needed motivational kick up the butt to retrain my focus. I had a personal trainer before when I reached 10 stone back in 2008 and enjoyed the 1 on 1 time with someone who was qualified so I am looking forward to having one again. I feel that I need something to give me the focus that I seem to have lost and to also have a rigid fitness programme in place that will get me working on the areas of fitness that I want to improve on. I had my fitness assessment on Monday so my PT took my measurements, my weight and did some flexibility tests to measure my fitness. My body fat percentage is 49%! Urgh, not a number that I want to see again. My measurements and weight will be reviewed in 4 or 6 weeks time (I can't remember what we agreed!) so it will be interesting to see what difference having a PT makes. My first session is on Tuesday so instead of stuffing my face with pancakes, I will probably be moaning at my PT for making me all red faced and sweaty!
As of my last weigh in on Monday, I have 48lbs to go until I reach my goal of 10 stone. Ideally I'd like to get to 9 stone but I want to reach 10 and see how I feel and if I want to lose anymore or focus on toning my body and losing inches rather than losing weight. My birthday is in 22 weeks time so here's some maths for you:
Birthday in July = 22 weeks.
Current weight = 13 stone 6lbs
Goal weight = 10 stone
48lbs to lose
2.18lbs per week to lose
The weekly target weight loss used to be 1.8lbs when I reviewed this in December/January as I haven't really lost any weight since 24th December weigh in at 13 stone 6lbs. All I've done is gained 9lbs over Xmas, lost 12lbs in January and gained 3lbs last week. Argh, this is why I need a PT!
There seems to be a trend amongst some of my social media weight loss friends (including myself see above) that we're all having 'bad week's in terms of our weight loss journeys at the moment. Is there something in the water? Has our green tea been spiked with several drops of de-motivation? What is going on?
I've read a few articles which explain the theories of giving up on New Years resolutions (with most people not even keeping to them past 31st January) and how only 8% of people actually achieve them. Have we reached the 6 week point where we reach a cross road on our journey; will our will power be strong enough to keep going or do we choose to stop because it all seems too hard?
Today I decided that I want to be one of the 8% that achieves their New Years Resolution. I don't want to be the fat girl anymore. I don't want to be wearing size 18-20 clothes. I don't want to be out of breath from just running up the stairs and I don't want my lack of confidence to impact all areas of my life. And I'm sure my weight loss buddies want to be in that 8% statistic too.
So come on guys and girls! Put down that cake, clear out of your cupboards, fill your fridge with fresh veggies and healthy foods and lets get our butts in gear! We can do this!
I never said it was going to be easy, but I promise you it will be worth it.
Because nothing tastes better than being slim and healthy feels
Start Date: 7th October 2014
Start Weight: 15 stone 8lbs
Current Weight: 13 Stone 3lbs
Total Weight Lost: 33lbs