Tuesday, 19 May 2015

I want to...

Another Monday morning has rolled around. Another chance to right all the unhealthy wrongs that we have made over the weekend or the past week/month/year.

I for one have not stuck to my healthy lifestyle 100% since
my last post, despite finding the motivation to stick to my plan. Changes in my job and my home life have changed my routine somewhat and I've just gone with excuses to indulge in eating unhealthy food and not to exercise. I have been struggling with my food demons lately but I guess if you want something that badly then you wouldn't let anything get in the way of it? 

I have found that weightloss is very much based on your mindset. If you're going to give it 100% of your attention and dedication 100% of the time, you will get results. But I find that in order to do so, I have to be in that 'giving it my all' mindset, not letting anything get in the way of what I want to achieve. If I'm not in that mindset, then I struggle. I'll give into a chocolate bar or a slice of cake and think 'I'll go for a run tomorrow instead of today'.

That mindset has got to stop.

Since Christmas I've done nothing more than gain and lose, gain and lose with different events and occasions giving me another excuse not to stick to my plan. I've wasted 4.5 months where I could have lost 2 stone and only be 1 stone away from my goal weight in time for my birthday.

Yeah, that goal isn't going to be reached now. With 2 months to go I'll be lucky to be in the 11 stone bracket if I buckle under and stick to eating healthy and exercising.

This week, it's safe to say that I am trying. Not 100% but I am trying. So far this week Monday and Tuesday I have completed days 1 + 2 of the C25K app and aside from 1 chocolate bar each day, I've stuck to eating healthy. I just have to cut out that chocolate bar tomorrow and reach for an apple instead. 
I'm taking it 1 day at a time. I want to have lost all the weight by Christmas as an overall goal but I need to break this down into smaller obtainable goals in the short term. Although what this looks like I haven't quite worked out! I will keep you updated in the next post.

What I have figured out is that losing weight is different for everyone. Everyone tackles losing weight differently and lives a different life to the next person. What someone may find easy (such as giving up chocolate), the next person may struggle with. 
I have an addition to food. Junk food, takeaways and chocolate mainly. My addiction isn't something that is going to go away any time soon. Just because I've lost 3 stone so far doesn't make this journey any easier nor make the addiction any weaker. It is something that I battle with each and every day and will probably do so for the rest of my life. Unless scientists come up with a magical pill to make it disappear! It is something that I have to learn to control and something that I need to beat most of the time but there are going to be days where it will beat me. It's not letting those days turn into weeks, then months and putting the weight back on. 


One day at a time. Thinking about managing my goal weight seems alittle overwhelming right now so taking things one day at a time is how I'm going to play it for now. 

I've been drafting up this post for a few weeks now, updating it with little thoughts I've been having whilst I've been struggling. I was going to centre this post around them but I think each thought speaks for itself so I've kept them below:

*I want to be that person who's strong enough not to let things like bank holidays get in the way of being healthy.

*I want to get up early and go running and feel like I haven't wasted half a day in my PJs. To feel the fresh air on my face and to enjoy being outside

*I want to feel amazing and leaner than I did a week ago

*I want to see my running results improving

*I want to see my boxing sessions with my PT improving

*I want to wear all the nice clothes that I have

*I want to see my friends and go out and have fun and not be scared to see them because I'm overweight

*I want to be the best version of me as I possibly can. Leaner, fitter, high energy, clear skin, healthier inside and beautiful on the outside

*I'm actually sick of eating crap and yet I continue to eat it and put it into my body?!

*My energy levels are down, I can't be bothered to do much. 

*I don't want to let my PT down 

*I don't want to undo everything that I've worked for so far

So there are my random thoughts that I've been having recently!

I have a new before/during pic to share with you all too:

Until next time

Much Love

Just Ems

Start Date: 7th October 2014
Start Weight: 15 stone 8lbs
Current Weight: 12  Stone 11 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 39lbs
Height 5'2

1 comment:

  1. Hi Ems, looking at your before and after photo - and your start and current weights - you have done amazingly well! I'm trying to get slimmer too - and I'm doing the Exante Diet, and have lost 1 stone so far.

    I don't stick to it 100% through the week so I try and do swaps when I do feel like something - i.e. if I really can't resist takeaway, I'll order options that are low carb and Nandos is the ultimate saviour for that!

    It can be depressing when you gain a little again but just keep looking at the big picture. If yesterday or today didn't go to plan, don't dwell on it - put a line under it and move on.

    Good luck with the rest of your weight loss journey - and fingers crossed for a fab week for you. :)

    Michelle -x-